It’s been exactly over a year since I’ve last written, and there has been a big change. There is now a new addition to my family. Eliana Faith. The meaning of Eliana is “The Lord answered”. Before conceiving Eliana, I prayed to God for a girl and during my whole pregnancy I continued to pray as we decided not to find out the gender of our baby.
Finding faith that the Lord would answer my prayer was not easy, as I was tested. After we announced that we were expecting our third child, two family members shared with us that they dreamt that we were expecting another boy and they were adamant that’s what we were going to have. How did I feel? I don’t think I can even explain?…..but I prayed, and I prayed really hard.
You see, it was my hearts desire for a girl. I delighted in the thought of having a daughter that not only I could do girly things with, but that I could establish a beautiful mother daughter relationship with. I also thought of my son Landen and how having both a sister and a brother would be good for him.
It would hurt me and even annoy me at times when people would start stating that I was going to have a boy because of the way I carried. With all three pregnancies, people always proclaimed I was having a boy because of the way I carried but with this last pregnancy I wanted so bad to not let their comments affect me as I really wanted to believe that God would answer.
One day after church, a family membered commented how my stomach was so round and then another family member commented, “Oh, its a boy.” I was holding back the tears but when I got into my car all those tears were released. Chuey exclaimed to me, “didn’t you listen to what pastor talked about?” as the preaching was about faith. So of course he heard me whine about my feelings and how my faith was being tested.
There was a Christmas dinner for the ladies at our church that I was so excited to attend, as I don’t really get to attend a lot of church functions. That evening I left encouraged with a scripture that I engraved in my heart and even inserted in a frame in my bedroom and that is Luke 1:45
–“Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill His promises to her!”
Knowing that the bible says in Psalms 37:4 “Delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart” – Luke 1:45 changed me, it somehow made me happier, stronger, it helped me believe, it helped me receive faith.
It’s so clear to me now; that we find faith in the Word of God.